A very overdue post that was left rotting in my draft. Might as well post it now.
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Today in my Human Communication class, I learned about the stages that are involved in our interpersonal relationships (relationship with others). It's quite revealing in the sense that I hadn't realize that was how we interacted with each other or to the people around us. Well, that's a lie. I had realize it and most of us would have realize it too. It is just that I have no words to describe it before up till today.
Monday, April 2, 2012
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Masquerade
I've been keeping old movies in my netbook just for stock in case I encounter situations of sheer boredom that I would simply bang my head off. It seems that moment came rather sooner than expected. Though, instead of doing the masochistic activity I've suggested, I opt to actually watch some of the movies in there. One of the movie I watch was "Phantom of the Opera --2004 version".
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Friday, February 3, 2012
Putting water to Rage and Fire
I grew up in an environment where I am always shouted at, ridiculed and belittled. Most people don't get what it feels like to be living under those conditions. I envy those that grew up in an environment with warmth, respect and harmony. If you perceive me from the outside without knowing my background story, you'll probably think I'm just some whiny biatttch who didn't get her way. I'm...not that kind of person you think I am. I'm much more worse.
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Results are out!
I keep on doing things not for my own well being. I try my hardest in university cause I want to make someone proud but it turns out, they weren't even satisfied with the marks I had gotten. Though,what the hell? You can't win everything.
I set the bar up pretty high this semester. Which is a great expectation to live up to in my other semesters.
-winces- I have to work hard this upcoming semester! Hopefully I can do it.
This is the subject I have to take next semester. I think I may have to take a foreign language but I'm not quite sure yet. May have to wait till I get back to university to make sure. Out of all, I'm worried about Phonetics. I suck at Phonetics, big time. Ever since my diploma days. So Nadia, I have to work extra extra EXTRA hard on this subject. I have to know my material inside out.
I can't wait for introduction to human communication. It sounds like it's going to be hell lots of fun. :) I wonder who'll be teaching that subject?
I set the bar up pretty high this semester. Which is a great expectation to live up to in my other semesters.
-winces- I have to work hard this upcoming semester! Hopefully I can do it.
I can't wait for introduction to human communication. It sounds like it's going to be hell lots of fun. :) I wonder who'll be teaching that subject?
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
A dream: Will you come back?
I...had a dream yesterday. It was so vivid. I was on a journey to somewhere.
Just another one of those nights, you know?
Sometimes, out of a sudden, a wild thought appears.
It uses imprison on you.
It's super effective!
You feel trapped and is injured by past memories trying to haunt you.
(Too much Pokemon) =__=;;
Anyways,...it's just one of those nights filled with screaming, sarcasm and hateful glares. It tries to suffocate you with guilt, make you think you're the ugliest person alive, and you are left feeling empty, torn and broken inside.
So...
I'm just sitting here...hugging my knees, enjoying my music and chillaxxxxxx, yo! At the highest most strongest maximum volume my laptop can manage, of course.
Keeping my demons away...
shoo...
Please..? :'(
It uses imprison on you.
It's super effective!
You feel trapped and is injured by past memories trying to haunt you.
(Too much Pokemon) =__=;;
Anyways,...it's just one of those nights filled with screaming, sarcasm and hateful glares. It tries to suffocate you with guilt, make you think you're the ugliest person alive, and you are left feeling empty, torn and broken inside.
So...
I'm just sitting here...hugging my knees, enjoying my music and chillaxxxxxx, yo! At the highest most strongest maximum volume my laptop can manage, of course.
Keeping my demons away...
shoo...
Please..? :'(
Monday, January 30, 2012
Addiction level: Sims Social
3 more weeks until class starts and I'm getting bummed out by inactivity. There's nothing to do much at home. So, I spend all my time expanding and improving my Sims Social in Facebook. That and I surf around 9gag, Iwastesomuchtime, MyLifeIsAverage, and DearBlankPleaseBlank. -amused-
For sims social, I even got lots of new neighbors in the Playfish forum to help me get by in the game. The game does require quite a lot of active neighbors if you want to succeed quickly in it. I even have a design here of how I want my overall house to look like.............. Yeah..which I just found out I don't have it right now. -sigh- I must have forgot to save it. Dang. :) Oh, well. It's still in my head!
Oh and did you know that if you send out to many friend request, facebook is going to block you (accuse you more like it) because it assumed that you do not know the people you are adding. Isn't facebook suppose to be a place where you should meet friends? Sheeshh. Now I have to wait out 14 days before I get to send anymore friend requests because I added someone that facebook thinks I do not know but one that I have 45 mutual friends with.
Can you tell that I was super duper bored to know this stupid fact? lol
And before I forget, one of my friends is moving to a new university. I'm going to admit it, it's not going to be the same when the semester break is over.
For sims social, I even got lots of new neighbors in the Playfish forum to help me get by in the game. The game does require quite a lot of active neighbors if you want to succeed quickly in it. I even have a design here of how I want my overall house to look like.............. Yeah..which I just found out I don't have it right now. -sigh- I must have forgot to save it. Dang. :) Oh, well. It's still in my head!
Oh and did you know that if you send out to many friend request, facebook is going to block you (accuse you more like it) because it assumed that you do not know the people you are adding. Isn't facebook suppose to be a place where you should meet friends? Sheeshh. Now I have to wait out 14 days before I get to send anymore friend requests because I added someone that facebook thinks I do not know but one that I have 45 mutual friends with.
Can you tell that I was super duper bored to know this stupid fact? lol
And before I forget, one of my friends is moving to a new university. I'm going to admit it, it's not going to be the same when the semester break is over.
Friday, January 13, 2012
The Sims Social
To be honest...I have a little addiction going on here. I...am a big Sims Social slut. Oh wow, look at that. Triple S. Hehehee~ Well, back to the point. I have always like games that is sim related. I mean...who doesn't like having the power to control other people's lives? -imagine I'm giving evil laugh here-
This game is a one of PlayFish's brilliant creations once more. Next to Restaurant city, Hotel City and many other games this company develop, never have I seen a game with close to 5 million active users a day. That's really something, eh?
In this sim social, interactions are rather limited unless you good frieds, best friends, bffs, lover or any other level of intimacy with the other sims. You can say that these different level open a whole lot more newer and better interactions. For example, for lovers, there's this "Woo Hoo!" option. -wags eyebrows- I'm sure we all know what that means?
Well, there is really no point to this post actually. I'm just telling you guys that I'm wasting the better part of my current live leveling up my house value and trying to nail a girl named Lily Evans with my character being Severus Snape. Yes, I am that bored currently. ^_^ Oh yeah, both characters are mine. I used my fiancee's account to make Lily Evans and play both.
However, since fate has been far too cruel to me, it decided to interfere and makes my life a living hell. I keep getting this bug that prevent me from uniting those two together. My friends was saying that those two weren't meant to be together. My response? Challenge accepted! :D
This game is a one of PlayFish's brilliant creations once more. Next to Restaurant city, Hotel City and many other games this company develop, never have I seen a game with close to 5 million active users a day. That's really something, eh?
In this sim social, interactions are rather limited unless you good frieds, best friends, bffs, lover or any other level of intimacy with the other sims. You can say that these different level open a whole lot more newer and better interactions. For example, for lovers, there's this "Woo Hoo!" option. -wags eyebrows- I'm sure we all know what that means?
Well, there is really no point to this post actually. I'm just telling you guys that I'm wasting the better part of my current live leveling up my house value and trying to nail a girl named Lily Evans with my character being Severus Snape. Yes, I am that bored currently. ^_^ Oh yeah, both characters are mine. I used my fiancee's account to make Lily Evans and play both.
However, since fate has been far too cruel to me, it decided to interfere and makes my life a living hell. I keep getting this bug that prevent me from uniting those two together. My friends was saying that those two weren't meant to be together. My response? Challenge accepted! :D
Ends a Chapter in my BENer life
A few days ago marks the end of a chapter. I still have 7 more chapters to go through with my BENer (Bachelor in English) stage of life. I haven't been narrating my story of the first chapter as well I had wanted to since there wasn't many updates. The most that I did update was of me being pissed with something or someone. I know, emo train. Can't get of that one.
But, it's 2012. I have new resolution to try and uphold to. But before I move forward with me life, let me summarize the major events that happened in UniSZA this semester.
Starting of the semester, I registered in UniSZA. Registration sucked because of its inefficiency and bad service. First week of classes was interesting. I registered 6 subject for this semester which were:
1) History of English
2) English for Communication
3) Public Speaking
4) Language and Linguistics
5) Bahasa Melayu and Komunikasi
6) Akidah dan Akhlak
In that exact order, I would rank how cool and interesting each of them were with Akidah and Akhlak being the last. For god's sake. I have never met the most disgusting, vile and lazy teacher in all my life. He literally did not teach us anything at all. All through out the semester, he did not teach. He made us do presentations that we never pay attention to. That was the class I never learned anything except from my own (forced) reading because I still need to score on the final somehow. Even then, I don't know squat if you were to question me now.
The most I have learned was from History of English. I mean, people say it's hard but I find all those historical fiction, Harry Potter verse, king Arthur and Merlin stories I've been reading finally have a foundation...a..sort of base I could place my fantasies in. Throughout the course, everything was informational. I actually picked up an educational book to read out of interest from cover to cover. History of English really gave me insight in how English was born. Besides, it's so fun gossiping about dead people, right? Like...what's up with King Henry VIII, am I right? Or Chaucer? ;) And PakJamil really made it even more fun. ^_^
Linguistics was bummer. Not the subject or the teacher though. I love Linguistics! My lecturer was a.w.e.s.o.m.e! The only lecturer that made us butt heads in a quiz, do lots of activities and crack jokes all throughout lessons. It was just, being an ex-diploma student in UniSZA gives us the privileged to drop a few subjects and Linguistics was one of them. However, it was partly my fault. I sent in my form so late that the Dean didn't even consider it. So, I had to still take it. Though, even if I did drop it, I would still go to classes. I mean, I'd be missing out on a lot if I didn't go! :D
Public Speaking gave me an outlook on the mechanics that are involved in giving a speech in public. I lecturer did a lot to help it get through our thick skull and I learned a few tricks of the trade. The only regret I had for this class is that it is too big! 63 students?!? Should work on that.
BM? Nothing on this. I hate BM since the dawn of time. BM and I were never amigos. So, my lecturer, even though cool and nice got boring by association with the subject. This class did not interest me one bit. It didn't interest me back in kindergarten, primary or secondary, it certainly will not interest me now.
Well, that's all on the subjects. Now, about my classmates. Sometimes I feel like it is a jungle. Survival of the fittest. Sometimes, we're all chums and buddies. It's confusing. Nevertheless, there are a few that single themselves out immediately and had establish the "group". We have:
1) Big Group
2) The Loners
3) Otaku
4) Korean maniacs
5) The Cosmetic Freaks
6) Gossip Girls (include both genders)
7) Mean Girls (include both genders)
8) Still undefined
9) Riders (don't do assignments and conquer assignments)
10) Social-path
Yeahhhhhh. That's about it. I learn to avoid certain groups if I'd love to have my limbs and other body parts intact. When it comes to assignments, I learned to stay well enough away from number 9. Bad experience. Horrible. Can't look at the bitch in the face. Can you believe it? You're doing a pair work assignment with someone. You already divide the work and promise to combine later. However, me being my usually negative self, undersell my own abilities (I always do this) to mighty the princess over there.
She ended up doing my part when I specifically call her MANY BLOODY TIMES WITH BLOODY WITNESSES asking her for HER part to combine. What I heard, she told people, I don't do the bloody work. That's why she had to do my part. Brilliant, princess. But wait! It gets good. Little Princess turns into an Ice Queen when she DID NOT WAIT for me for presentations. She wanted to present without me being there. No, not Ice Queen. More like, DRAG QUEEN.
If I ever am forced to work with this DG, I'm unleashing my sarcasm full blast.
"You are clear with this assignment, right? You do YOUR part, I do MINE."
"Just to be clear, presentation of dual assignment requires TWO people. Let me speak in ANOTHER language so can get it through you pathetic skull, mkay?"
-sighs- Talking about this again just giving me a headache and making me pissed for no good reason. I should put closure to this and put it all behind me. -shrug- Alright! Alright! Closure. I'll leave this post as a closure for my first semester and here's to hoping it stays that way! Amin.
Ciao, mates.
But, it's 2012. I have new resolution to try and uphold to. But before I move forward with me life, let me summarize the major events that happened in UniSZA this semester.
Starting of the semester, I registered in UniSZA. Registration sucked because of its inefficiency and bad service. First week of classes was interesting. I registered 6 subject for this semester which were:
1) History of English
2) English for Communication
3) Public Speaking
4) Language and Linguistics
5) Bahasa Melayu and Komunikasi
6) Akidah dan Akhlak
In that exact order, I would rank how cool and interesting each of them were with Akidah and Akhlak being the last. For god's sake. I have never met the most disgusting, vile and lazy teacher in all my life. He literally did not teach us anything at all. All through out the semester, he did not teach. He made us do presentations that we never pay attention to. That was the class I never learned anything except from my own (forced) reading because I still need to score on the final somehow. Even then, I don't know squat if you were to question me now.
The most I have learned was from History of English. I mean, people say it's hard but I find all those historical fiction, Harry Potter verse, king Arthur and Merlin stories I've been reading finally have a foundation...a..sort of base I could place my fantasies in. Throughout the course, everything was informational. I actually picked up an educational book to read out of interest from cover to cover. History of English really gave me insight in how English was born. Besides, it's so fun gossiping about dead people, right? Like...what's up with King Henry VIII, am I right? Or Chaucer? ;) And PakJamil really made it even more fun. ^_^
Linguistics was bummer. Not the subject or the teacher though. I love Linguistics! My lecturer was a.w.e.s.o.m.e! The only lecturer that made us butt heads in a quiz, do lots of activities and crack jokes all throughout lessons. It was just, being an ex-diploma student in UniSZA gives us the privileged to drop a few subjects and Linguistics was one of them. However, it was partly my fault. I sent in my form so late that the Dean didn't even consider it. So, I had to still take it. Though, even if I did drop it, I would still go to classes. I mean, I'd be missing out on a lot if I didn't go! :D
Public Speaking gave me an outlook on the mechanics that are involved in giving a speech in public. I lecturer did a lot to help it get through our thick skull and I learned a few tricks of the trade. The only regret I had for this class is that it is too big! 63 students?!? Should work on that.
BM? Nothing on this. I hate BM since the dawn of time. BM and I were never amigos. So, my lecturer, even though cool and nice got boring by association with the subject. This class did not interest me one bit. It didn't interest me back in kindergarten, primary or secondary, it certainly will not interest me now.
Well, that's all on the subjects. Now, about my classmates. Sometimes I feel like it is a jungle. Survival of the fittest. Sometimes, we're all chums and buddies. It's confusing. Nevertheless, there are a few that single themselves out immediately and had establish the "group". We have:
1) Big Group
2) The Loners
3) Otaku
4) Korean maniacs
5) The Cosmetic Freaks
6) Gossip Girls (include both genders)
7) Mean Girls (include both genders)
8) Still undefined
9) Riders (don't do assignments and conquer assignments)
10) Social-path
Yeahhhhhh. That's about it. I learn to avoid certain groups if I'd love to have my limbs and other body parts intact. When it comes to assignments, I learned to stay well enough away from number 9. Bad experience. Horrible. Can't look at the bitch in the face. Can you believe it? You're doing a pair work assignment with someone. You already divide the work and promise to combine later. However, me being my usually negative self, undersell my own abilities (I always do this) to mighty the princess over there.
She ended up doing my part when I specifically call her MANY BLOODY TIMES WITH BLOODY WITNESSES asking her for HER part to combine. What I heard, she told people, I don't do the bloody work. That's why she had to do my part. Brilliant, princess. But wait! It gets good. Little Princess turns into an Ice Queen when she DID NOT WAIT for me for presentations. She wanted to present without me being there. No, not Ice Queen. More like, DRAG QUEEN.
If I ever am forced to work with this DG, I'm unleashing my sarcasm full blast.
"You are clear with this assignment, right? You do YOUR part, I do MINE."
"Just to be clear, presentation of dual assignment requires TWO people. Let me speak in ANOTHER language so can get it through you pathetic skull, mkay?"
-sighs- Talking about this again just giving me a headache and making me pissed for no good reason. I should put closure to this and put it all behind me. -shrug- Alright! Alright! Closure. I'll leave this post as a closure for my first semester and here's to hoping it stays that way! Amin.
Ciao, mates.
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